Oh, no!

You’re gone.

Challenge

I’m ready for this.

I can do anything.

Disney

I want a new Disney movie to come out. I love Disney songs.

1. A Whole New World
2. You’ll Be In My Heart
3. Reflection
4. Won’t Say I’m In Love
5. Beauty and the Beast
6. Shooting Star
7. True to your Heart
8. Go the Distance
9. Colours of the Wind
10. Under the Sea

I can’t say

There are so many things nobody looking from one angle is going to see. Then I try and give the other perspective but it won’t be able to show anything. I’m so confused.

I can’t say how sorry I am that the things I made them to be weren’t really how they are. I must have given you a fright here and there. Put you in the wrong place. Read you a wrong story.

I can’t say if there’s a next time, or if this is goodbye.

I can’t say the right thing anymore.

Goodbye

He always made me laugh. I remember the time Jarryl picked up a phone call from him and just couldn’t control his laughter because of the things Nicholas was saying. His childlike voice and features hides the true man he is inside.

I think you would agree with me if I said he was someone that everybody loved. Right now, it’s all coming back, the memories that we’ve shared, and I can’t control my tears.

Nicholas passed away yesterday, on the third of July. I will always remember the date. I will always remember his smile. I will always remember 2LT Nicholas Chan Wei Kit.

~

It is painful. It is hard not knowing when I’ll see you again. But I will. Rest in peace buddy.

Changes

Full speed ahead. I’m afraid I can’t keep up. If you asked me, I believe I have indeed saved myself. Maybe switching the OC in my name to 2L really did change things in ways unimaginable.

I’m changing so fast that I haven’t begun to grasp that concept.

Tony, Don’t be a hero

*To the tune of “Billy, Don’t be a Hero”

The usual gang went down to Zouk last night
The girls and boys dressed to the nines
I looked across and there I saw Tony
Waiting to go and join the line
There was a girl, so much he loved her
His sweet and pretty date that day,
From where I stood I saw she was cryin’
And through her tears I heard her say

Tony, don’t be a hero, don’t be a fool with your life
Tony, don’t be a hero, come back and make me your wife
And as he started to go she said, Tony, keep your head low
Tony, don’t be a hero, come back to me

The Mambo King was trapped on a podium
The people dancing all around
The DJ cried, You’ve got to dance on, guys!
We’ve got to listen for the sound
I need a volunteer to go up
And bring us back some extra drinks
And Tony’s hand was up in a moment
Forgettin’ all the words she said

She said
Tony, don’t be a hero, don’t be a fool with your life
Tony, don’t be a hero, come back and make me your wife
And as he started to go she said, Tony, keep your head low
Tony, don’t be a hero, come back to me

And when he finally got to the bar man
“Tequila shots, give me ten trays.”
The bar man said, “oh you are a rich boy
“I’ll mix you anything if you can pay”
I heard that he went broke that day …

They sang:

Tony, you are our hero, come back and dance to this song,
Tony, you are our hero, please take those drinks along,
And as he started to go they sang, Tony, come and get lo-o-ow
Tony, you are our hero, come dance with me

Safe

I recently started saying: Be safe, be sorry. But then again I think about it and I realise I’ve been too safe all my life. Yeah well I get crazy and do things to make everyone wonder what the hell I was thinking at the time, but it’s still within certain sane boundaries.

I’m thinking of breaking some so called rules. I’m thinking of playing dirty once in a while. The hard part is wondering if I’m going to become an asshole in the process.

Meanwhile, a life needs re thinking.

Don’t

To me:

Don’t give up, don’t give in, don’t make excuses, don’t say sorry, don’t wait, don’t show pain, don’t show emotion. 

To you:

Don’t lie.

Rush rush

I didn’t think this whole “saving yourself” thing would go so quickly. You make the decision one night and it’s been Rush Rush all the way! I’m not prepared to go through it so fast; I think commissioning and turning 21 will make it go even faster, but I must use these two things to slow it down somewhat. 

So I get into the car and turn the key, and over the radio “Can’t fight this feeling anymore” is playing and I go, “Shit.” 

Everything in my head seems like a rush, just like tonight (when I did 140 down Lornie for the first time in my life).